Who am i, to you

Ever felt so useless and helpless, not knowing what to do? Everything that you do, just doesn't make sense any more..

I feel like I am a nobody any more. I am not saying I am perfect, but I've been trying my best, to be a better person, a better someone for you. But everything I do, just got ignored and not being appreciated. I do not know is that on purpose, but I got a feeling you chose to ignore it for god knows what reason..

I hate how things turned out to be like this. We were once near to perfect. But until one day, everything just screwed up. Maybe it's my fault, or maybe it's yours. But I know one thing for sure. Both of us played a part. I know I am sensitive. But sometimes, it's good to have someone to care for you than someone who do not give any shit about your whereabouts. I just got disappointed again and again.

I am just someone searching the path to be as near to your heart as possible. To feel what you once gave me, to be held in your arms once again. But now it just feels like everything went back to the days when we were just friends. Or maybe worst than friends. What I am asking for is just to feel special for once. The way you treat others just made me feel that they deserve better treatment than me. I just hope everything will goes back to normal..

Because right now, I do not know where I stand..

Credits to Blackalogy. :)

An Ending is always the new Beginning

I never thought this start so early. The pain yet again.

I dream that you'll be in love with me.

I dream that we'll be forever together.

I dream that we'll be forever together.

but all this doesn't seem to be reality.

It's just a dream.

But i'll never stop dreaming

Because i believe

Dream will be reality one day

I look back to the times we use to have fun.

Laugh, smile, pinch and even poke.

Time pass so fast even i cant keep track of it.

I didn't mean to fall in love
but we all make mistakes

Your smile always cheers me up

whenever i'm down.
You'll just cheer me up.

Always putting that smile on your face.
make me smile too

People say

if you are meant to be with each other

No matter what both of you went though

You'll always find your way back to each other.

Is this true?

 Eventually we'll go to a stage.

where everything will be just fine

We'll just go back to our daily life

We'll just be friends.

like nothing happened before.

'Life goes on.'

It always sums out to that.

An ending is always the new beginning.

You say best, when you say nothing at all

The Last Step

Times flied. I still remember the first time we chat. 

The first time you called. We talked for so long.

Calling each other to sleep.

The sweet times we had through phones.

Though we never met that often. I smile when i talk to you.

I always been trying very hard. Just to let you know

That i can do anything just for you.

But you don't seem to notice.

I'm scare you know. That one day you'll no longer talk to me.

That you no longer know i'm here for you anymore.

Getting to know you was the best thing that ever happen to my life so far.

but letting you go, it was the worst.

But, I wasn't left with any choice. I waited you for since July you know.

6 months isn't short. 

I always believe that you're the one for me.

but i don't know what are you thinking.

I'll never miss a day since the day we met.

To say Good Morning every morning, 

and Good Night whenever you go to bed.

whether you are asleep or not.

I'll always remember you. 

till the day i grew old and die with you or without you

I'll always love you. though you forget me in the future.

I wont.

I tried my best to make you smile whenever you are down,

To smile along with you when i'm down.

Hey, thank you for the sweetest memories you gave me.

I smile everyday going to bed because of you.

I go on my life each day because you lighted my life.

I'm so thankful that i got to meet you.

These 6 months had been a wonderful time for me.

I'll remember each and every seconds of it.

I still love you. I'll be there one day when you're ready.

51 FACTS ABOUT GUYS :)

‎1. Guys hate sluts.

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-

how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it

51. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

11, 16, 18, 22, 24, 25, 35. (;

Nothing can make me smile like you do.

It's been quite awhile.
About more than a month ago, i felt in love.

I never expected the feeling to happen to me.

but i fall. She was something different.

I know she was.

The feeling i had for her now and before grew stronger and stronger.

Till now, i cant live without her.

I'll never look back.

Your past is your past baby.

I won't mind.

As long as i know, you are with me.

I'll smile.

But, i'm scared. You are beautiful.

You know, i always scare you'll fall for other boys.

I scare i'm not good enough for you.

After all, i never was.

But i still keep my hope alive,

Every single day, i wake up and go to bed

with a smile on my face.

Keeping my hope up.

I promise. No matter what, i'll marry you

Some say,

" If the other half is meant to be with you,
Let it go, she'll come back no matter what."

But if you doesn't make an effort to keep your other half

She'll never become yours.

I love you. Three simple words.
But it meant a lot to me.

I never heard you once said to me.

But i know you do.

You never admit you do.

sometimes it make me worried,

that i'll lose you.
But when i think you will,

my heart always says.

"trust her, it'll worth everything when you both are together"

This date. I really wish that you'll be mine and i'll be yours on this day.

It's so special. It'll only happen once a thousand year.

I want our first day in relationship to be memorable.

Like each and everyday when we are together.

But it's always up to you to decide.

I'd been waiting so long.

I don't mind waiting a bit longer.

Though we don't always meet, i never lost hope in us

You have already grew in apart of me.

Everyday without you just make my love grow stronger.

I been telling you these for so long. I wont mind how you look

I wont mind what you are before.

I just want to know that you love me.

Because i love you.

Verse 1

She read me the note he left on her bed

Snuck in her room right after she left

And put petals on the ground

Her head on his shoulder they walk down the hall

I'm left to wonder will I ever fall in love

And where is he now

Prechorus

She's with him, I'm in the back seat

Know it's not right but it hurts when they're laughing

And I've never been where they are

Chorus

I wanna be blown away

I wanna be swept off my feet

I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe

I wanna be lost in love

I wanna be your dream come true

I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you

Just call me beautiful, Call me beautiful

Call me beautiful, Call me b-e-a-utiful

Verse 2

Friday night she wore his jersey to the game

In the front row screamin out his name

As he turns to her and smiles

Every where I look people holding hands

When am I gonna get my chance at love

My chance at love

Prechorus 2

Cuz she's with him, I'm still hurting

Try to pretend but it's not working

I just wanna be where they are

Chorus

I wanna be blown away

I wanna be swept off my feet

I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe

I wanna be lost in love

I wanna be your dream come true

I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you

Just call me beautiful, Call me beautiful

Call me beautiful, Call me b-e-a-utiful

Bridge

My heart is waiting for your love

My hand is waiting for your touch

My lips just wanna be kissed by you

Chorus

I wanna be blown away

I wanna be swept off my feet

I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe

I wanna be lost in love

I wanna be your dream come true

I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you

Just call me beautiful, Call me beautiful

Call me beautiful, Call me b-e-a-utiful

Beautiful, Call me beautiful

Call me beautiful, Call me b-e-a-utiful

Jealousy. Sometimes, it kill.

Yea. I'm afraid. I'm afraid of losing you. Most of me already had you in it. I'm scare.

I'm the kind of boy who trust his girl no matter what.

Today was a fine day, looking forward to today since last week.

Woke up in the morning. Got ready. Ended up myself with a big smile on my face.

1.10pm. I was in front of SBS school gate.

Wondering where is she, i think of the time we will have.

Yea, the day continue. Her friend was helping me too.
& , i was just shy. I know i love her. She knew it too.

But the push wasn't there.
She was not ready i guess.

I was trying my best. but, i'm somehow i shy type.

But somehow, i feel happy when i'm with her. i just donno why.
Is this call love? (:

I watch her having her taekwondo. & somehow, i donno what they are doing.

I slept half way through. till she came.

I put my head on her shoulder. I glimpse a smile.

She talk to her friends. Then, i over a boy saying,
'Yes, my princess?'

By then my emotion turns.

I never show it out then.

I'm somehow like to keep my emotion to myself.

I know i care. I'm jealous abit though.

Then, i trust her cuz i know she loved me

Right at the end, when i was leaving, I gave her a kiss on the cheek.
Just when i was going, I glance back. i saw her face was red. i just smile.

I love her. Forever and always.
I trust her. Cuz she will be my one and only.

Abit jealous wouldn't hurt right?

But, dont too much. Sometimes, it kill.

My heart's a stereo

It beats for your, so listen close

Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio

Turn me up when you feel low

This melody was meant for you

Just sing along to my stereo

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.

2. Actually talk to her.

3. Share secrets with her.

...4. Give her your jacket.

5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.

7. Hold her.

8. Laugh with her.

9. Invite her somewhere.

10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..

11. Smile with her.

12. Take pictures with her.

13. Pull her onto your lap.

14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.

15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.

17. Kiss her unexpectedly.

18. Hug her from behind around the waist.

19. Tell her she’s beautiful.

20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.

22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.

23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.

25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..

26. Don’t lie to her.

27. DON’T cheat on her.

28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.

29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.

30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.

31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.

32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.

33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).

34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..

36. When people diss her, stand up for her.

37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.

38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.

39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.

40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.

41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.

42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.

43. Take her for long walks at night.

44. Always remind her how much you love her.

45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!

Just read. :)

I don't care if you are a boy or girl or guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.

...

If only everyone could see this and understand it.

When she stares at your mouth,

Kiss her.

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you,

Grab her and don't let go.

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough,

Kiss her and tell her you love her.

When she's quiet,

Ask her whats wrong.

When she ignores you,

Give her your attention.

When she pulls away,

Pull her back.

When you see her at her worst,

Tell her she's beautiful .

When you see her start crying,

Just hold her and don't say a word.

When you see her walking,

Sneak up and hug her waist from behind.

When she's scared,

Protect her.

When she steals your favorite hoodie,

Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

When she teases you,

Tease her back and make her laugh.

When she doesn't answer for a long time,

Reassure her that everything is okay.

When she looks at you with doubt,

Back yourself up.

When she says that she loves you,

She really does more than you can understand.

When she grabs at your hands,

Hold her's and play with her fingers.

When she bumps into you,

Bump into her back and make her laugh.

When she tells you a secret,

Keep it safe and untold.

When she looks at you in your eyes,

Don't look away until she does.

When she says it's over,

She still wants you to be hers.

When she reposts this bulletin,

She wants you to read it.

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go.

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you.

-Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her.

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid.

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes.

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

-Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is: "Whose ass am I kicking baby?"

Credit to YenTheng's Blog. Do go visit : Spread Love Like Violence

You Complete My World

 You know what, there are nothing that is worth more than you right now.

I put aside everything

because something is more important

than everything i had.

You.

I just wan to be with you. I wan to have a future with you

I swim across the ocean if you are far away from me.

I'll do anything i can, just to keep you happy.

You are my

Everything.

It seem like you don't get it, I will do anything

to find my only love.

You keep reminding me that you are not worth it.

You are not beautiful enough

You are ugly.

I don't care that.

Even if you not beautiful enough,

I love you not for the appearance

it's the heart that matters.

You are everything that i could ever wish for.

No matter what your reality looks like,

you're the girl I'm in love with today

and the same girl I'll be in love with tmr and the day after that.

Not just because of who you are but because of who you were.

There is 3 things that i need in my life,

The sun, for the day.

The moon, for the night

And YOU for the rest of my life.

You are the first thing i think of every morning i wakes up.

I want to give you a morning kiss, saying ' goodmorningmydarling'

At night, I want to be the one who is the last one who wishes you goodnight

and giving you a kiss on the forehead. Waiting you to fall asleep.

You are not like other girls.

You are special. You are my pig.

You are my everything.

Stay in my life, ok? i mean forever. :)

To be honest, You already meant the world to me

I can't promise you our relationship can be perfect.

but,

mind this, i will promise that i'll try my best

to make everything as perfect as it can.

We are the perfect match.

I wouldnt wan to leave you.

Let's grew old together,

Let's have our fairy tale story

We are the perfect two, Baby me and you.

This song represented us.
My love, you are the only exception.

I love you.

(:

Something out of the impossible.

I never knew i could feel so much pain

and yet be in love with the one causing it

I'm tough. I'll survive. I hope.

I love her. Enough to let her go.

if she is happy, i'm.
She'll be fine. Many people loves her. Many is chasing her too.

I'm also one of them though.

But,

I give up. In some mean, i love her too much.

I don't know whether she is with me, or with other people.

I always need her.

From the day i met her, i always brought phone to school.

Though it is dangerous and i'm rather quite unlucky.

My phone was confiscated twice. But im still willing to take the risk.

I texted you everyday after school but you never reply.
I waited the whole day and i when i get back.

You always say sorry.
And when i'm unhappy at sometimes, your text always make me smile again.

*Change her to him, she to he*

I always want you. I always need you.

But do you?

Please tell me that you need me,

cause I love you so much.

I love you that i'm willing to let you go,

because most probably,

you are happy with some other who love you

But not me.

Tell me, Tell me you are going to be with me no matter what.

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

Credit to Lisa's Blog. take most of the picture from there. :)

Relationship hurt, but why ppl keep getting into it?

My main question for today. Relationship hurt, but why ppl keep getting into it? Each and everyone of use, often get into relationship. Hey! When you are sweet, you seem to be they best you ever had.

For that period of time, you will think that you are the best person on earth either because you had a good boyfriend or a girlfriend.

But do you really think before, whether this relationship can last? For sure when you say it will, you are just hiding the truth. In fact, for a steady relationship to happen, a couple must be responsible not only for his/her other half but in a fact, he/she must be responsible for his/her ownself. To think what is the best for the other half. Not to be too selfish and stuff.

Some way or another, it is best to remain single if you are not into the facr that you must recieve the consequences if you broke up. No matter how long is your relationship that you and your couple had been through, when you broke up it is over. You cant get back to the stage where you two are a couple.

For my advise, stay strong. There are future ahead. You donno what is in front of you. Dun stay there and wait for the rainbow to fall, create you own rainbow.

Make you life better without the person that once love you but hurt you the most in the end.

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